Google!

I never though in a million years I would be googling how to be at peace with oneself
LOL
seriously

I'm so used to having all the answers to everyone's problems, including my own
Now I'm at a road block
What scares me the most is the thought that I haven't even hit rock bottom yet..

But this, right now, is the furthest I will let myself fall.
I am a winner
Always have been always will
I just needed an eye opener
It taught me that I can't be a perfectionist anymore
That I can't continue to make everyone my first priority
I cant please everyone
I cant make everyone happy
I hate having to live up to this fictional persona that I've been living for these years in front of my family

I want to be able to make mistakes yet have my family still have that support behind me

I have to make me happy first
I have to find something that pleases me
I want to be what is perfect in the eyes of CANDICE
no one else